Purple Flower

I guess that is how my life's going to be. It has been an up and down hectic life. Too many things pile up and I have been frustrating a lot with unnecessary stress. Contemplating back if ever my decisions were right or is it going to be that kind of life lesson I need to learn. I'm very much frustrated with myself on so so many things. Sometimes I thought that I'm ready to be hurt and grow up, but at times I'm afraid to walk any further. I'm just frustrated that I can't do any good in my life. Still depends on someone. Still relying on someone. am I even worth it to be fight for? am I really worth it to live another life? please oh god can someone tell me that I'm doing good enough? tell me that it's okay to take it slow. I'm trying to cope right now.   

 😔 idk anymore. a thousand times i've been hurt, I'll always come to you and think about you first. worried about you. when in fact I was hurt too but I guess I just need to swallow it all down for you.

 can someone ask if I'm okay? 😔 cause literally I am not okay. I want someone to talk to...😢

 Ya Allah 😢😭 can you give me the chance to fix what's broken? jeballl T.T  Tolong Ya Allah 😭😭😭😭

Ya Allah, jika kewujudan aku di dunia ini tidak lagi membawa makna dan tidak membawa faedah pada orang lain, maka Kau cabutlah nyawa ku, supaya tiada lagi yang disakiti.

dah agak dah, aku hidup ni cuma bawa luka dan sengsara pada orang lain je, since dari dulu. then should I just die? so that the world will be in peace again,,, wait let me kill myself.😔

IDK.... it hurts every time I think about it, though I thought I'm going to just let it go but 😔 tak tahu lah nak cakap camne.... takpe ah simpan je, simpan je adlin, simpan.